[Toward the evening, everyone will find a handwritten note on their doors.]
"Please meet me in the Common Room tonight. I have something important to tell everyone." - Monika
[She waits there most of the later evening for everyone to show up. And when everyone is there, Monika stands up in front of the now small group of classmates she's gotten to know. Now it was time to get to know her.]
This week I remembered something important: that my world is gone. Gone by choice actually because I'm the one who "erased" it. I might look like it, but I'm not actually human. I don't want to go into exact details about what I am because it could make you go insane. So let's just simplify it to I'm something like an living A.I.
Back home...I had a very set path in life. Everything was picked for me, and I couldn't stand it. There was no happy ending for me, and it scared me so much. It lead me to make a lot of horrible decisions.
[She plays with her hair a little.]
I was jealous of my club members because they all had the chance to find happiness. It ended up not being difficult to manipulate them. I took it way too far though. I... pushed two of them to commit suicide. And the other I chose to erase as well. At the time it was easy to convince myself I didn't care about them because I was so different from them. I was forced to be friends with them because of that path that chosen for me. But when all was said and done...I regretted it. And I regret having to erase that whole world... but I really wasn't left with any choice.
Yet... somehow I ended up being here. I know most of you feel like that's horrible for all of us, and I agree that I do not enjoy how many of our friends have died. But I also feel like I've been given a second chance of some sorts. A chance to make real friends and build real relationships instead of being forced to follow a path. And for that I'm grateful. I feel.... more real thanks to you all.
That being said, after knowing all this, I understand if you no longer want to be friends or even distrust me. I honestly can't blame you. But everyone keeps saying what a "good" person I am. I don't feel "good," and I don't want to manipulate all of you like I did my clubmates. I just wanted you to know the "true" me.
Anyway... thanks for listening!
[A really awkward ending, but she's not really sure what else to say. Instead she just stands there nervously while waiting for a response.]
CW: Suicide/Bullying, DDLC spoilers
"Please meet me in the Common Room tonight. I have something important to tell everyone." - Monika
[She waits there most of the later evening for everyone to show up. And when everyone is there, Monika stands up in front of the now small group of classmates she's gotten to know. Now it was time to get to know her.]
This week I remembered something important: that my world is gone. Gone by choice actually because I'm the one who "erased" it. I might look like it, but I'm not actually human. I don't want to go into exact details about what I am because it could make you go insane. So let's just simplify it to I'm something like an living A.I.
Back home...I had a very set path in life. Everything was picked for me, and I couldn't stand it. There was no happy ending for me, and it scared me so much. It lead me to make a lot of horrible decisions.
[She plays with her hair a little.]
I was jealous of my club members because they all had the chance to find happiness. It ended up not being difficult to manipulate them. I took it way too far though. I... pushed two of them to commit suicide. And the other I chose to erase as well. At the time it was easy to convince myself I didn't care about them because I was so different from them. I was forced to be friends with them because of that path that chosen for me. But when all was said and done...I regretted it. And I regret having to erase that whole world... but I really wasn't left with any choice.
Yet... somehow I ended up being here. I know most of you feel like that's horrible for all of us, and I agree that I do not enjoy how many of our friends have died. But I also feel like I've been given a second chance of some sorts. A chance to make real friends and build real relationships instead of being forced to follow a path. And for that I'm grateful. I feel.... more real thanks to you all.
That being said, after knowing all this, I understand if you no longer want to be friends or even distrust me. I honestly can't blame you. But everyone keeps saying what a "good" person I am. I don't feel "good," and I don't want to manipulate all of you like I did my clubmates. I just wanted you to know the "true" me.
Anyway... thanks for listening!
[A really awkward ending, but she's not really sure what else to say. Instead she just stands there nervously while waiting for a response.]