credits roll over the edge of horizons, that I haven't discovered yet

[ososoi]

[ Well... fuck that trial, honestly. ]

[ But despite everything... as much as he just wants to shut down after everything that's happened this week... Osomatsu will make an effort to be helpful. For all the remaining others' sake. ]

[ So, later on, he'll leave notes for everyone. ]

if ya dont wanna be alone
come to the sutabaa starbucks
theres food and drinks

[ The handwriting and colour makes it clear who the notes are from. ]

[ And indeed, the Starbucks area has a surprising amount of food and drinks, albeit it's mostly stuff like the pre-made food (that he didn't make himself) from the bakery (like muffins, croissants, bagels, cakes, cookies, etc.) and a bunch of bottles of soda (with paper cups). But it's still surprising, considering it's Osomatsu. The tables have been set up with platefuls of food and everything. It took a while but here it is. ]

[ So yeah, feel welcome to join in. And you're always welcome to help out with the party. ]

[ Everybody needs a little help every once in a while. ]

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[newhire]

...he's not free. Not... probably the way he wants to be.

[But. She'll let him go. She'll stare at the ground. But that won't stop her from talking.]

He's gone to the same place they all have. The place from where you conversed with them before. I'm sure he's already learned that he's faced the same fate as the others.

There's... a place where those wishes aren't incompatible. Outside of this school. And I'm going to get you there. All of you.

Cw suicidal thoughts

[blackcatintheruemorgue]

I know that. But even if I brought him back using whatever technology you used to bring him back in the first place, he’d just leave me again for his true freedom. He’d just go off with that stupid grin of his and die for Dostoevsky or his fucking freedom again! I... I don’t even know if he would ever return my feelings! Because you people decide to open the fucking floor right at that very moment, I will now be stuck wondering what his response would have been forever! Now, even if I tried to talk about this pain, none of the others would understand! I fell in love with the person everyone rightfully hated! They’d think I was insane!

[He’s yelling. He knows lashing out is wrong. But maybe that will make her leave him the fuck alone. He’s so tired. He’s done.]

He got his freedom in death! I wanted him to live! He can’t be alive and dead at the same time! They! Are! Incompatible! Wishes!So explain to me exactly how those wishes can both be fulfilled at once outside of this hell of a school!?Because literally the only way I see that relationship working out is if I joined him in his stupid true freedom! It’s not like the others even need me!

I don’t even have the justification of being a responsible adult for the group to continue living! Terra’s more than fulfilled that role far better than I ever could! Where the hell am I supposed to go from here?! What justification could I give for living!? Viral is dead! Rebecca is dead! Hank is dead! Waver is dead! Mitarai is dead! Nikolai is dead! Literally the only possible justification I can think of is to live just long enough to burn this place to the ground out of spite and mount Jim’s head on a stick!

[newhire]

...what's a "good" justification for living?

[Vivienne closes her eyes and stands, her expression becoming dark.]

This artificial life of mine only exists to fix the world of mistakes I made. Not because I deserve it. I don't. But dying to these people-- letting them win is something I can't accept. When it's over I... I don't know if I'll want to continue. If I deserve to continue. But... before I die, I'm going to set things right for the people who's lives I helped ruin. For all of you who didn't deserve these shackles.

[She purses her lips.]

If you need a reason... then... I'll give you one. I will go to the place only someone dead like myself can go and I will bring you back Nikolai Gogol's answer.

And if at that time, his answer isn't enough, then... I'll let you ask one last wish of me. If that is to join him in that place-- then I'll be the person to do it.

[blackcatintheruemorgue]

[He’s quiet for a few minutes.]

.... Do that. And... Tell him I believe he’s capable of being better. He’s capable of not being terrible. I’ve seen it. In the meantime... I’ll search. If I can’t find another reason to justify continuing by the time you return, then I’ll take you up on your offer.

[A bitter smile forms on his face.]

Although... I have lived for revenge before. I could do it again.

[Another pause. It’s a selfish request... but what does he have to loose?]

.... and... If you see him while you’re there..... please tell Waver I thought of him as a little brother. I.... suppose I could tell him myself... but if I can’t, I’d like to rectify that second major regret of mine. Those two... were my most important people. I... only got to let one of them know that before they died.

[newhire]

I'll tell him that. But... I think you know that deep down he knows that too. You're the one who showed him that. Waver, too.

[She gets it. She really does. Because there's a grudge she hasn't been able to let go of too. A hatred that she's let drive her at times. In others though, she can see it more clearly.]

Even so... I don't... I don't want you to give them that. Do not give them that power. I don't want you to put the reason you live in the hands of people like James Terrence. People like that don't deserve the breath you'd waste on them. If you're going to find a reason find... find something for you. Find something in yourself, or the people around you that truly care. If you open your eyes, you'll see they're still here.

And... once I've delivered those messages, I'll return with your answers.

[blackcatintheruemorgue]

..... I hope so.

[He's quiet for a few seconds thinking.]

...... I'll think on it. I... have ideas.

[If Rantaro was able to be brought back to life... then the same should apply to those currently dead, right? He sighs and looks at the ground.]

..... Thank you Vivien..... Vivi. I'm.... sorry for lashing out.