i'm just young enough to still believe, but young enough not to know what to believe in

[throwabookatit]

[ What do you do after all that?

Well, you mourn. After...an hour or so, a note goes out, under everyone's doors- everyone's. ]

If you also don't want to be alone after the day we've had, come to the second floor of the dormitories. Food and drink will be provided. Alcohol will be confiscated immediately.

[ You'll find Rebecca's set up the common area with food, that she seems to keep supplying, every so often. It's kind of strange, though, she seems like the sort of person to harp on eating well? She definitely has, for some of you. Yet, the food seems a strange split. On one side, there's all kinds of fruits and vegetables and breads. Legumes, made maybe not the best, but it's still an effort. Vegetable soups, no meat in sight. Simple seafood. If you're familiar with Greek culture? Yeah. It looks a lot like something they'd describe in...a history book.

On the other side? God, it's all burgers and pizzas and...pineapples? Pineapple juice? What the heck, Rebecca? In any case, there's enough food to keep everyone fed, and it seems...Tess, oddly enough, keeps bringing batches of burgers from the kitchen?! What a team-up.

The Starbucks is open too, where it's a bit...quieter? Some tea and coffee set up, there.

For those who just want to cry, in peace. ]

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[buriedearth]

So, you're technically both a Heroic Spirit and a Master?

[ That's incredible...

Terra is probably making an erroneous assumption regarding that portion. But, command seals and he said he was a Servant, so he must be both technically, right? ]

...Most of that sounds like it could cause a huge problem, though. This Grail War likely hurt a lot of people, didn't it?

[swordsinternally]

Technically, I'm only a Master because of the body that I'm borrowing.

[ Since this isn't even his own body. ] Although I'm an exception. I'm a Servant-- but not a Heroic Spirit. I have no place in the Throne of Heroes. But yeah, it did. It hurt a ton of people.

Not to mention... in a way, I hurt a lot of people.

[buriedearth]

[ Right, he did mention he does remember that big reveal back in Week 4--not essentially about his body being not his, but the whole "fake Shirou" business. ]

What do you mean by that? I can't see you as the kind of person who'd hurt a lot of people, even indirectly.

[swordsinternally]

When I was summoned during the third War, it was as Avenger-- as Angra Mainyu. I was known as "all the evils in the world". But I was a weak Servant. I was defeated right away.

When I was taken into the Grail, it was because of my identity and how the sins of all of mankind were carved onto my body that I tainted the Grail. And subsequently, it was that corruption that caused many people to die in the War after that.

[buriedearth]

What?

[ Terra's too dumb for this so give him a second. . . ]

...Is what you're saying that because you 'tainted' the Grail so that when people won the war -- and the Holy Grail -- they died from it?

[ He feels like he's not understanding something here. ]

[swordsinternally]

The Grail was a farce to begin with. When I was taken in and tainted it, the swirl of magic that was the Grail... during the fourth War, what was poured out were the curses that came from me.

Because the Grail granted the wish to make me into a demon. A demon who truly was all the evil in the world. And those curses poured out and killed a lot of innocent people. Including Emiya Shirou's original family.

[buriedearth]

[ ... Dear lord. But, even as Shirou--or rather, Tsukasa--tells him this, he doesn't have a judging expression on his face at all. ]

Remembering that you were part of that somehow...must've been an incredible burden.

[swordsinternally]

Yeah. I... didn't really have a consciousness when that happened, though.

[buriedearth]

I guess it's good you couldn't really properly experience all of that, then.

[ ...In the sense of he wasn't really cognizant of things when something so terrible happened. Not that he's...saying it's good at all, mind you. ]

Looks like you set up the shrine once we got it finished. Did you put food there or was that someone else?

[swordsinternally]

Maybe.

[ He still thinks that it's honestly pretty terrible, though. ]

Yeah, I did. And I was the one who put the food there.

[buriedearth]

[ It is... ]

...It was good of you to do that. I put the candles over there too since I figured now that we have a shrine there's a proper place to actually place them somewhere.