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locked_down2018-09-15 11:00 pm
lockdownmods) wrote in locked_down2018-09-15 11:00 pm
WEEK 6
[Week six comes like an ominous wave. If anything, the wall is more threatening that it's ever been. That sign from last week? Looks aged-- like it's far more than just a week old. But more than that, it feels like something is waiting to snap this week. What could possibly go wrong, after last week?
Said no one ever, at this point.
But still, if you look around this week, you might find out something. It's like someone has started leaving clues in places old and new. Take a look around.]
Said no one ever, at this point.
But still, if you look around this week, you might find out something. It's like someone has started leaving clues in places old and new. Take a look around.]
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I don't know if I can.
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[ Terra doesn't look like he's simmered down much, because he's still angry, but his voice sounds somehow gentler, maybe even a bit pleading.
Then, he holds out the letter to her. ]
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...I just hate that she knew. She knew and she still went...
I feel so powerless, Terra.
She held all that inside and couldn't say a thing.
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If only... ]
I know, I...
[ ... ]
I keep wishing that all of this--all of that happened differently. But, it doesn't change a thing, no matter how hard I want it to.
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...It feels like once I open this, she's gone forever.
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[ His voice kind of catches there.
He closes his eyes, not sure of what else to say for a moment, and that may be because there's just...so much right now. He does raise one hand that's kind of just trembling a little, before allowing it to rest against Max's shoulder--on the side. ]
--I wondered later if maybe by her leaving these for us, it'd meant the opposite. As long as we have something like this, we'd be keeping something of her alive.
[ Maybe just her memory, but he doesn't want to say that. Is it because it's still hard for him to accept it? ]
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[Max falls silent for a moment, and without thinking, is then hugging Terra's side and crying.]
But I miss her so much! [her voice breaks as she sobs into Terra, the letter trembling in her hand.]
S-She always knew what just to do, even when she was scared or didn't understand, she always took care of us as much as she could...
What am I supposed to do now!? Connor and Hank and Rebecca are all gone and I can't possibly live up to the things they did for us! I'm not strong like she was, I'm just lucky.
I'm just lucky, that's all I am...
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Even without them here, you'll make it. We have to, in order to make it through all of this, and so that their efforts won't go to waste. There's still more that we can do, even if they're not "here" with us.
[ Terra wonders if, even though he feels so weak, he can become that strength. Just like he was before... what had happened to Rebecca. ]
And...I believe everyone's strong in their own different ways. That goes for you too, Max.
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I wish I was like you, I'm always...I don't know, I don't know what I'm bringing to the table anymore.
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[ Terra then just takes pause, thinking better of it. ]
I'm only able to be this strong because you are here with me, and that goes for the others too. If...I were alone, I think it would've ended up like it did when the Entrance Exam ended.
[ That was a bad time. He's kind of also reeling a bit from someone saying that they wish they were like him. For...so many reasons. ]
...Trust me when I say that it's a good thing you are who you are.