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locked_down2018-09-22 08:22 pm
lockdownmods) wrote in locked_down2018-09-22 08:22 pm
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WEEK SEVEN
[Week seven is here. Surely the course is drawing to a close soon? There are more places to explore, and there can't be that much more going on but...
The wall is actually very ominous now, like something has been awakened. The field is almost impossible to be near, that's how oppressive the wall is around it. There are also physical signs of darkness dotting the wall.
Welcome, you're almost near the end.]
The wall is actually very ominous now, like something has been awakened. The field is almost impossible to be near, that's how oppressive the wall is around it. There are also physical signs of darkness dotting the wall.
Welcome, you're almost near the end.]
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[Poe's voice is stern as he goes over to get the painkillers the nurse specified from the shelf. He returns with two in hand and -after a bit of searching- a small paper cup of water.]
Here... take these painkillers. It.. should make it far more bearable.
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[ Osomatsu shakily attempts to sit up. It's a good attempt, but he has to hug himself to keep himself from shaking any worse. ]
[ He reaches his arm out to grab the cup... but he's trembling so badly that most of the water spills out. ]
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[He has no idea what he's doing. Poe quickly goes to the sink to refill the cup.]
Do you erm... need assistance taking it...?
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[ He tries to steady himself by hugging himself tighter so that he won't shake as badly. ]
[ It sorta works. He's shivering less, but he's still shivering kinda badly. ]
...Mm...
[ He reaches out and takes the pills into his hand. Poe might need to help Osomatsu drink the water. ]
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[He'll do that then. He'll hand him the cup, but he'll also keep his hands on the cup to steady it. He doesn't want Osomatsu to feel completely helpless in this situation... so he won't do all the work. Just most of it.]
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...
[ Osomatsu puts the pills into his mouth before grabbing the cup (with Poe's hands still on the cup, steadying it) and drinking the water, swallowing everything down. ]
Hgh...
[ The pills don't seem to be working yet. But he's only just ingested them, so that's not surprising. ]
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.... They should take effect soon. Just... try to rest until then. I... um.... can answer any questions you have if you feel up to asking them though.
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...Ah.
[ ... ]
[ Osomatsu knows what happened to him to fuck up his eye, but... ]
...What...? Wh-Why am--...?
[ He's still trying to hug himself to stop the shivering. ]
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[He did the best he could.]
We... did the best we could... but there... wasn't anything left to save of your eye.
[His shoulders slump.]
I'm sorry.
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...
[ Osomatsu's shaking has reduced considerably by this point, but he's still hugging himself. ]
[ He's got this look in his eye, as if he were a deer in the headlights. ]
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[ ...He starts brokenly laughing. It's also the kind of laugh that someone does when their sanity is slipping. ]
...I fucked up. I fucked up so badly.
[ If he hadn't tried to punch Jim, he'd still have two eyes. But no. He had to be a dumbass. ]
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[Tsukasa and Akira for example.]
... but you ah... did indeed f... mess up.
[He... looks very worried now. Still... it's best to rip the bandage off soon. He goes over to cabinet and pulls out a simple red medical eye patch.]
You'll need this from now on... but ah... the important thing is that you are alive.
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[ Thanks for reminding him of how much he messed up, Poe. ]
[ Osomatsu gingerly takes the eyepatch... ]
[ And suddenly realizes that his neck is bare. ]
...Where...?
[ He starts panicking again. ]
Wh-Where is it?! The magata-- where is it?!
[ Unbeknownst to Oso, the magatama necklace is resting on an empty chair nearby, all cleaned up. ]
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[Poe scrambles over to gingerly pick up the magatama necklace and bring it back over to Osomatsu.]
Sorry, I- um... didn't want to give it to you while you were still shaking.. and.. ah... we had to clean it.. and.... sorry. Returning it to you... that should have been my first priority.
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[ Osomatsu hastily snatches the magatama from Poe and hugs it tightly. ]
[ By now, the painkillers have already started to kick in. ]
Th-Thank you...
[ ... ]
God... if I hadn't tried to... to that Jim bastard, I...
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[It was the decent thing to do. Poe shoots him what he hopes is a stern look at what he says next.]
There's there's no point in 'what if''s now. It happened. Now... you just need to focus on what comes after.
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[ Tears start pricking at his eyes. Well, eye. ]
...I'm trying. [ But it's hard. ]
[ As Rebecca said, the 'what if's are inescapable, in some ways. ]
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[There are a lot of things he's done in the past that he regrets... but you can't change the past.]
We're always going to be haunted by our mistakes... but don't let them break you. It's.... not easy to get back up from.
[He would know.]
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[ ... ]
[ The tears fully spill over and run down Osomatsu's face. He puts his hand up to his good eye, his remaining eye, in a vain attempt to stop the tears from flowing. ]
...I'm trying.
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[It's not good to bottle up your emotions. He would know.]
Don't... don't stop yourself.
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...Ghh--!
[ And with that, Osomatsu drops the eyepatch and magatama on the bed and buries his face in his hands. You can just barely hear him sobbing. ]
[ He hates this. He hates this so much. ]
[ So much for trying not to fuck up royally again. ]
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