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locked_down2018-09-08 05:53 pm
lockdownmods) wrote in locked_down2018-09-08 05:53 pm
WEEK 5
[ You're doing well! In fact, there's a nice message in your inboxes on Sunday reminding you about your midterm evaluations, and how those will be coming very soon. Make sure you're studying! And, of course, there will be support services on campus to help you cope with the stress. The message almost looks like it should go on and list what those services are, but it cuts off abruptly, and that's that.
Meanwhile, the wall is more ominous than it has been in the past. What felt oppressive last week feels oddly eerie, and if you let yourself stay near too long, it feels oddly comforting and calling. Your freedom is just on the other side of the wall, after all. But that's okay, someone has posted a warning outside all buildings to not go near the wall.
Oh well. At least there are new locations to explore!]
Meanwhile, the wall is more ominous than it has been in the past. What felt oppressive last week feels oddly eerie, and if you let yourself stay near too long, it feels oddly comforting and calling. Your freedom is just on the other side of the wall, after all. But that's okay, someone has posted a warning outside all buildings to not go near the wall.
Oh well. At least there are new locations to explore!]
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[ Hank rolls his eyes dramatically. ]
It's cause of you, dumbass!
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What?!
WHY ME?! [ OSO YOU KNOW WHY ]
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You know why!
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...Oh.
...
[ He tenderly pokes at the bandaged bridge of his nose. ]
What the fuck did I do last night?!
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You probably fractured your damn hand and slammed your face into a wall for no goddamn reason.
So, yeah. You are never drinking again.
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[ Osomatsu is more than a little unnerved about how he injured himself last night but right now... ]
YOU CAN'T DO THAT!! That's overkill!!
What if I want to drink and I'm not miserable?!
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Too fucking bad! I am willing to follow your ass around if I have to -- you're not drinking and that's final.
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NOT EVEN FOR FUN?! That's bullshit!!
Can't ya at least just limit us or something?! Ya don't have to go overboard!
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[ Hank puts his foot down, crossing his arms. ]
This is the third goddamn week of you drinking, asshole! Three times I've had to pick your ass up and tell you to fucking stop! Just because you didn't hurt yourself bad enough this week doesn't mean you couldn't've!
I am not gonna be the one who picks your ass up if you pull this shit again next week, got it?! I'm cutting you off!
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WHAT THE FUCK ELSE AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?!
It's not like I'm able to handle that shit sober!
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I--!!
[ Suddenly, Oso slouches over, deflated. ]
...If that... everything hadn't gotten so bad... [ Maya. 2-D. ] I would've tried to be sober for once.
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I know... I know shit's bad. [ He pats his shoulder. ] But alcohol isn't the solution, kid. It's not gonna make anything better. It only makes shit worse.
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...I know. Probably.
From what little I remember, this time I didn't even feel remotely better while drunk. I just... felt like shit.
[ ...All of a sudden, he gets why Hank is trying to push a no-alcohol rule. Not that Oso is still annoyed by it, but he understands it a little more. ]
...
...How could...?
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[ Hank sighs. That Osomatsu is discovering the shitty part of alcoholism already just does not bode well. ]
Once you get dependent on the stuff, you start needing it just to get back to zero. [ He sighs. ] It's... an addiction, kid. It's not fun. When you're not on it, you feel like shit. When you drink, it's not even to make yourself feel better. It's just to keep yourself from feeling worse.
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...Yeah. Yeah, that's basically it, huh?
[ That's why Oso had been binge-drinking at the afterparties. He didn't want feel any worse than he already had. ]
...For me, drinking used to be fun, ya know? Just fun and... whatever. But now I just feel miserable.
I'm miserable when I'm sober and I'm miserable when I'm drunk. I just can't win, can I?
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[ Hank pats his shoulder. ]
You're not alone, alright? I'm here for you. Rebecca's here. There's people who care about you, I promise.
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...Right.
...
I just... feel so betrayed, ya know? Why would he...?
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[ Hank shrugs. He's been a cop for over 30 years. He's Seen Shit. ]
They get scared. They panic. Still their fault, yeah, but I've seen it a million times.
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...28 times. He stabbed her 28 times.
[ His hands ball up into fists. ]
Maya-chan didn't deserve that...
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[ Hank shakes his head. ]
Nobody deserves that.
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[ Oso's headache slowly gets worse as he grips onto his forehead with his good hand. ]
I still can't believe that-- god, I can't believe that-- I can't believe h-he would kill her so fuckin' horribly!
Maya-chan-- she's-- she-- [ He can still remember seeing the lifeless face of her-- ]
[ All of a sudden, tears sting at Osomatsu's eyes before he hastily wipes his them with his sleeve. ]
Goddamnit... [ He should've realized sooner he had feelings for Maya. But now he can never tell her anything. ]
[ As usual, he keeps fucking up. ]
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Yeah. It was fuckin' awful... but he paid for it. Doesn't bring her back, but at least he didn't get away with it.