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locked_down2018-09-29 08:45 pm
lockdownmods) wrote in locked_down2018-09-29 08:45 pm
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WEEK 8
[When you wake up, there's a text message in all of your inboxes, warning about how stressful exams week can be. The email comes replete with names of study sessions, tutoring hours, and free pizza on other parts of the campus. And it encourages you to check online for the exam schedule based on your class and section number.
There's also a note that there will be weekly stress puppy pop ups to help you relax? So that's nice and thoughtful! But ultimately, at Fayflower, they just want to make sure everyone has what they need to do well on their exams.
What a nice email.
But things have obviously deteriorated around you, with the wall looking visibly... damaged? If you get close, it's extremely easy to lose track of yourself... and you might come away with a few bruises you didn't know you got. Who knows. Maybe Terra?
Happy final week.]
There's also a note that there will be weekly stress puppy pop ups to help you relax? So that's nice and thoughtful! But ultimately, at Fayflower, they just want to make sure everyone has what they need to do well on their exams.
What a nice email.
But things have obviously deteriorated around you, with the wall looking visibly... damaged? If you get close, it's extremely easy to lose track of yourself... and you might come away with a few bruises you didn't know you got. Who knows. Maybe Terra?
Happy final week.]
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But you don't need to rush it!!!
(Especially if you're flustered...)
I know romance isn't your genre after all, Alanushka.
I miss you too, but I think you should try to stay alive a little longer.
...Hypocritical as it is of me to say.
cw: refrence to suicidal thoughts
I mean.
You are my one and only muse.
It's accurate.
I'll... try to go at my own pace then.
You're right when you say romance isn't my genre.
I... think I could get used to it for you though.
I.
Um.
Like the feeling.
It's.... warm.
I will.
It's... not as if I can go back on my word to Tsukasa or take Vivi up on her offer anymore.
[Even if it was super tempting at the time.]
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Maybe you could venture into it with a story about a phantom thief and a gloomy detective!!
At the start they get on each others nerves...but then they realize the whole cat and mouse game was because they are mutually fascinated with each other!!!
Then...they kiss or something. You're the writer here, not me hahaha.
...You're right though. It's nice.
It's different.
But it's nice.
That's good.
[A moment after he sends the message, he adds another.]
It's funny. I've died twice now and I'm only starting to think that maybe
well
You can guess.
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I think it will be an excellent project to try my hand at writing.
It's better than I ever could have hoped for.
The idea of anyone willingly dating me would have seemed impossible weeks ago.
It's... surreal now.
But in a good way.
You have no idea how happy I am to know you're starting to consider it.
I... was worried before that the only way for us to be together would be for me to follow you into your true...
Well.
You know.
[He's relieved beyond words that Gogol is starting to consider an option other than true freedom. He's certain the others wouldn't have approved of such an extreme option.]
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Come now, you're quite the catch!
You've just got questionable tastes in men ahahahaha
It's a lot to think about. But I have enough time to do that here.
Not like I'm going anywhere.
Except for hanging out with the little bird!!
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I will.
Although I hope you can read it yourself one day.
I... thank you.
I'm not quite sure what part of me counts as a catch, but I'll take your word for it.
You already know I think the same of you.
Unfairly pretty and with an unique personality to boot.
I can agree with you on the second part though.
I'm glad Mitarai is keeping you company.
I wouldn't want you to be lonely.
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Too bad!! You get a quiz! It's a multiple choice question!! Choose:
A. Intelligence
B. Creativity
C. Good bone structure
D. Kindness towards clowns
E. Sadism
F. Sense of humor
G. All of the above
You flatter me <3 :oD
On both counts.
We're having a good time together!! We went to the arcade and the haunted house and I will see if we can do more karaoke!!
I haven't seen Waver...sometimes I think he might be nearby but then I only hear very fast footsteps?? Like a little mouse going pitter patter
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I'd be willing to do that.
It would be an interesting date.
I.... suppose I can't argue against any of that.
The answer is G.
[He's finally figured out the <3 is supposed to be a heart. It's... only fair he responds in kind.]
<3
Is it flattery if it's the truth though?
Because it is.
I'm glad that I was able to introduce you to haunted houses.
Although I can't help but feel Mitarai had a far less fun time than we did.
Ah.
Waver.
He's likely avoiding you and/or Mitarai.
[He has no idea how he's going to tell Waver about this. Maybe he'll get lucky and word will spread around before he talks to him again?]
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And the stolen goods will be real!!!
CONGRATULATIONS!!!! That’s the right answer!!!!!!
I think he was more concerned over other things...but we had fun all the same!!
It brought a smile to my face anyway :o)
Well Waver can’t hide from me forever here hahahahahaha!!
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While that would be interesting, If I won, I would have to break you out of jail.
Not the best prize for winning.
I'm not sure how we would get out of that predicament.
I suppose I can count the self-esteem boost as my prize.
I'm happy to hear that your father-son relationship with Mitarai is as strong as ever.
I know he's important to you.
True.
I wish you the best of luck in catching him and having a conversation at least.
[Apologizing for the stabbing incident might help in that regard.]
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Maybe just as you catch me you let me free after a love confession under the cover of moonlight!!
And then with a swish of my cape I disappear into the night!!
Until I can give you a better one ;o)
The feeling is mutual I think.
He’s not ready to leave the nest yet.
OH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I almost forgot!!!!!
As a newly appointed courier, I could send him a message for you!!!
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I imagine that your escape acts are 90% brute force and/or relying on your Ability.
You breaking out of prison would be... destructive.
So I suppose I will have to let you escape last minute like that.
I'll be looking forward to a dramatic love confession before you disappear into the night.
[There's a long pause before he manages to stop sputtering and reply to the next comment. Something better....? That... could be a lot of things and well... he really shouldn't let his mind run too wild.
Are you referring to a kiss?
That.
Um.
Would be an more than acceptable prize.
I don't doubt it.
While I can't help but wonder who appointed you as a courier, I would very much like that.
Just... tell Waver his older brother misses him dearly and would like to talk to him again sometime.
I'm going to be around the Computer Lab all of tomorrow... so If he wants to talk, tomorrow would be optimal.
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But I prefer this option anyway
I’ll work on it! I have enough time to......
Oh.
I was actually thinking of maybe a cool skull.
Or something like that.
But if a kiss is what you want........................;o)
We’ll just say a little bird told me to do it.
Wait.
That gives the answer away!!!! :o(
For you, I’ll try to wrangle Waver and drag him if I must!!
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I'm well aware of that dearest Clown.
You did make mostly functional designs for all those death traps after all.
I'm still impressed by how many notebooks you filled up with those designs.
I went through all of them after you died.
With any luck, at least two of them will see use.
I.
Oh.
Um.
A skull would be okay too.
I could find room for it in my collection, I'm sure.
But... a kiss would be nice.
I.
Uh.
Don't want to rush you though.
.... Also I'd need time to mentally prepare myself anyway.
It does.
Tell Mitarai thank you for me.
Be careful with Waver.
He likely hasn't reconciled with Alexander yet, so that's one less danger to you, but do try and not get too battered.
I won't be able to stitch up your wounds this time.
cw: mentions of self mutilation
Did you like them?
Some of them are a little embarrassing, but...
I'm glad you might use some of them :o)
Here's a compromise!!
I kiss you with the skull
Like a hand puppet!!
I'll pass it on like the good courier I am!!!
(I even have a cute little outfit...)
...Can I even get cut up like this?
I guess I could always check....
It'll be a fun biological experiment!!
Re: cw: mentions of self mutilation
It was difficult to narrow them down to just ten to choose from.
Did you have any particular favorites?
I'd be willing to put them back into consideration if they aren't one of the ones I chose.
How would that even work?
Come to think of it....
Where would you even get the skull?
Thank you.
(An outfit? I can see you dressing up for your new role, but where did you get one?)
Please refrain from anything too damaging if you really must.
Just... please don't die a third time.
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Did you keep in the one with the flaying?
I guess that doesn't narrow it down.
But if you didn't keep any flaying... :o/
That's just a little clown secret for you
;o)
(that's another clown secret!)
How does the phrase go?
Third time's the charm?
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All of them involve flaying to one degree or another.
I want the death to be as slow and painful as possible.
I can respect your clown secrets, but I'm afraid I'm going to have to have to use the favor you owe me now.
Can you please avoid dying anymore?
I don't want to lose you again.
I handled it abysmally the first time.
I'm not sure a second time would be any less.... destructive.
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That's a pretty big favor.
[There's a delay before the next message is sent.]
I'm still working it out.
But
I wouldn't want to upset you like that
Again.
[He doesn't know what happened, obviously, but knowing Poe, he could imagine.]
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Really... It's a downgrade from my plans from directly after your death.
I'm not sure how I would have decapitated Jim.
[Pure and utter relief floods Poe. God... he feels like he could cry from it. It's a few moments before he replies.]
Thank you.
I....
I know it's selfish of me to ask that of you my love.
Especially when I can't be there by your side to help you work it out.
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I support you with this <3
I'd lend a hand if I could, but it seems what I left behind might be enough
I think I've been the selfish one.
I had the thought the other day that I might have rushed things a little
And should've left more time
...you can guess why.
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I don't think the others would allow me to mount his head on a stick though...
Perhaps I'll just do to him what we did to Grantaire instead...
It'd be a good reunion gift, I'm sure.
.... I can.
I'd like to say there's not much point in mulling over what could have been done differently... but it'd be hypocritical of me to say.
I know I couldn't stop wondering if things would have gone any differently if I was honest with both myself you about my feelings before that Thursday.
[It.... just didn't seem like a good idea to admit them to himself at the time. Especially considering how he was planning on risking their entire friendship as soon as he got the files from Vivi. He didn't need to risk making what was probably going to hurt anymore painful.
It's ironic that not saying anything about his feelings until it was too late was what hurt him the most in the end.]
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As honest as I can be it wouldn’t have changed things
Most likely.
I was desperate.
I would’ve only begged you to let me go.
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Then it shall be done my dear. <3
Well.
Provided I am given the opportunity.
You know how everyone else is.
I'm not surprised by that.
I doubt I would have said anything even if I was honest with myself at least.
It.... would have only made the likely aftermath of giving you that folder hurt more.
[He wonders if Gogol ever got to read that.]
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Maybe they won’t mind so much if it’s you doing it...
Just don’t tell them it’s for me ;o)
I confess
I never got to read it, but I asked Vivi-chan if she might get it back to me.
With Dos-kun...I don’t know.
This is a conversation we shouldn’t be having over text.
[The chat goes silent, as if the user disconnected, but then there’s another ding.]
She told me that you think I could be better, though. A good person.
Thank you.
For believing in that.
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