An instance of darkness won’t leave behind a trace of shadow

[buriedearth]

[ Today's been another difficult trial, in of itself, but even after everything, the brunet doesn't find himself so willing to slink back, and just sullenly go about the night. How could he, when people were suffering, when his heart was telling him to reach out to them?

He gathers collections of papers and a pen.

They may think that what they're doing is right, and that they'll save everything if they sacrifice the lives of people they don't know. But we already know the truth, and I'm not about to let them have the satisfaction of what they might think is a 'job well done'.

Remember, deep down in our hearts, we're stronger than anything they can throw at us. Even if it doesn't feel it right now, the people we cherish and love will always be with us, no matter where we are. Together, we can make it through anything if we support each other in the hardest times, and keep fighting, no matter what happens.

If you don't want to be alone, you can come down by the library. There's some food for anyone who's hungry.

- Terra

Terra's sure that maybe the cafeteria is better for a place with food, but there's a reason why he's in the library. It looks like he has a few candles he found from shenanigans with last week and he's going to be probably setting them up, unless someone tells him it's a bad idea.

There's mostly some sandwiches he's made, and some juice he's brought along. Nothing too heavy because of what happened, but all in all, he tried his best. He's sure that's what Viral and Henry would've wanted... probably. ]

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cw: alcohol use (again)

[ososoi]

[ Osomatsu sits in the corner of the library, trying to drink himself to oblivion again. But it doesn't look like he's as successful as last time. He's tipsy, yes, but not full on drunk. And he's not as jumpy as you'd expect from someone who just had a Four Loko. Right now he's trying to pour some Franzia into the empty can. ]

[ Oso, stop that. That's not healthy. ]

[donotlick]

[ and this is why hank goes to afterparties. ]

I thought I told you to stop this fucking shit.

dangit that pic made me genuinely laugh

[ososoi]

...If it makes you feerl better, I'm tipsy, not drunk.

[ I don't think that's the problem Oso ]

good

[donotlick]

[ it's not, oso. ]

"If it makes me feel better," you know what'd make me feel better? If you didn't try and drink your damn sorrows away once a week.

[ososoi]

...What else am I supposed to do? Be miserable while sober? At least it hurts less when I'm miserable while drunk.

[donotlick]

[ Oh, that sure is familiar. ]

Yep! That's right. You get to be miserable while sober. Welcome to my fucking life, kiddo.

[ososoi]

Yeh. But we're two different peeps, ya know? [ Did Oso just pronounce people as peeps? The things you say when you're tipsy. ] You can probably handle this k-kind of shit sober better than I can. Prooobably.

Sometimes I hate being sober. And sometimes I can't bring myself to drown my sorrows. So I'm drinking this away so I don't end up regretting that I didn't bother taking the chance to ease the pain. [ He's even saving what little alcohol he has for afterparties now. ]

cw; suicidal ideation

[donotlick]

[ Hank squints at this muppet anime character. ]

Kid, you heard the shit I was going through at the trial, didn't you? I've been suicidal for three years. You know how I got there? Same way you are. Drinking.

[ He crosses his arms. He's being real with you, son. ]

Once you start doing it to ease the pain, it's one thing after another. You start getting so used to being numb that you start thinking that it'd be better if you just got it over with.

[ososoi]

[ ...Shit, he almost forgot about that. ]

...Uh. Right. Sorry.

I just... don't know how to cope with all this shit properly, ya know?

[donotlick]

[ It's all good, dude! ]

Yeah. I know.

[ Hank's gonna put those dad moves on you, Osomatsu. He pats the top of his little mushroom head, messing up his hair. ]

Look, you don't have to have all this shit figured out. You're still young. I just don't wanna see you picking up bad habits this soon, you get me?

[ Hank, he's 21. ]

[ososoi]

[ Actually Osomatsu's 22 but his show never actually stated what his real age is beyond 'in his early twenties' so eh ]

[ God, Hank patting him reminds Oso of what he does with his brothers. He's not used to being the one pet on the head. Oso's not really complaining. He's just not used to it. ]

[ And wow, Hank is a lot like an uncle. Or a dad. Dad-uncle? But that's not really surprising at this point. ]

...Guess I'm still figurin' out a lot, huh Oji-san? [ And too late, Oso's already got bad habits. ]

[donotlick]

Yeah. This place sure as fuck ain't gonna help with that.

[ It's fiiiine he's an uncle and a dad and an ojisan, all wrapped into one. ]

Listen... It's not a bad thing that you're upset 'cause of what happened. Just means you're still soft, deep down, and that's a good thing.

[ososoi]

[ He sighs. ]

...I guess so. [ The thing about being tipsy is that you have less of a filter but more coherence than when you're drunk. Or maybe that's just in certain cases, like right now. ]

[ Still, Oso doesn't like being weak-minded. But he can acknowledge that it's not a bad thing to have that one moment of weakness every once in a while. ]

[ Osomatsu stares at the empty Four Loko can... and aimlessly chucks it past Hank a short distance away. Clearly the wine isn't doing it's job well enough for him. ]

...Is the day over yet?

[itwasfeyt]

[Get ready, Oso, because here comes Maya! Who's just going to plop herself down over here, without a word... at first.]

...So, between you and me, do you think the people in charge of all this are really watching us all the time?

[ososoi]

[ The question catches Oso off guard, causing him to slightly spill some of the boxed wine. ]

...Uh, what?

[itwasfeyt]

[Maya continues, unperturbed. She's making an effort.]

Like, there's no way they could be keeping track of everything we do. And for what? What could they even get out of watching us this much?

[ososoi]

Uh... fuck if I know. [ Oso's used to people watching him, but that's more in a case of people who watch his show rather than the creepy kind of watching. ]

[ He finishes pouring some of the wine into the can and chugs it. ]

[itwasfeyt]

...Yeah, I guess.

[About the answer she came up with, herself. she lets out a sigh as the moment passes.]

How's, uh, that thing you're drinking?

[ososoi]

I'm not getting drunk enough... I should've gotten drunker than this by now!

[itwasfeyt]

If you got any drunker I'd start to worry. [Sounds kinda like a health hazard, but she doesn't drink, so she can't comment more on it.]

Wouldn't it be easier to talk about all this, anyway? Instead of... [Well, drinking something is easy.] I mean, talking's good.

[ososoi]

...No. [ There's a lot of things he doesn't want to talk about. ]

[itwasfeyt]

...Fair enough? [There's a lot of shit she doesn't want to talk about too, and Maya's feeling a bit less selfish than normal.]

But, still! You can talk about anything! Plenty of people that will listen to your problems, trust me.

[It's pretty much everyone.]

[ososoi]

Talk 'bout anything, huh?

Weeell... today sucked. And that's an understatement. [ And he doesn't have enough booze. ]

[itwasfeyt]

...Yup. that's for sure. But uh, how about that thing you said about being a "gag"?

[ososoi]

Aw, that?

Ya see, I'm a gag anime character! A tv show character!